mirror mirror on the wall.

had a very busy saturday yesterday. went to the aloha loyang in the afternoon to help out with the preparation for the big day. brought along my camera with me to capture whatever i can take along with me and hopefully to develop them if time and finances permit.

well, of course none of the photos consists of me, i couldnt possibly take myself but i'm kinda angry with myself for not taking photographs with my god daughter! omg. totally forgotten about it. anyway she was really busy, really busy transferring from arms to arms. It's kinda amusing that she didn't lay her feet on the ground after some time, probably when the crowd started coming in. because it was raining rather heavily outside, the place sounded and looked like very rowdy. people were everywhere, and looking for seats were kinda difficult moreover i'm supposed to be moving about. as it was getting late, different groups of people started to gather around the main table and sang the birthday song to the little girl. btw, the cake's design was elmo the bloody monster. elmo with diapers to be exact.. and OH MY GOD! WHO KILLED ELMO?! well, make a guess ..

after the main highlight of the event, people returned to their own cliques and i was left around wondering what to do next. luckily some nice souls were there to "entertain" me abit, if not i'll be left at the corner stoning. and soon, some of the crowd started leaving, making space for me to sit. and awhile more, it's time to me to leave to as there's nothing more for me to shoot at.

traffic was bad on the way home, but eventually i calmed down when i realised it was really bad to be losing my temper while driving. however, if you're driving slow, even if it's on a rainy day, please stop hogging the right lane.




after yesterday, i start to realise love is kinda wonderful afterall. spoke to one of adeline's husband's relatives/friends, his baby is bound to come out mid november. can see the joys and anticipations from his face, looking at such expressions i cant help but to feel happy for him and his wife.
im always in a dilemma, anyway love doesnt find its way to me. we always share the same polarity.

" l-o-v-e is just another word i never learn to pronounce "

often we are too engrossed in other people's faults but only to forget to take a good look at ourselves. let's start all over again shall we?



and adeline : let's go french instead. paragon is too cheap! haha =)

this must be a really bad week

such a bad week. seems like everyone have something against me.
oh my, I'm nearing my limits.
I'm not a bottomless bottle and space in there, is limited. only here then i can bleed it off a little.

so stop pushing me around.
sometimes i just want to have a piece of my mind,
i wanna go somewhere quiet and listen to the crashing waves.



seriously, nothing feels like its going right..


dear tracy, won't you want to take me along with you?

grandma, please recover.
...

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

firstly, i had something on before the meet up. and yes, im free, it depends on the time.

secondly, i asked for the time and you diverted my question. you didnt even gave me a chance to explain.

thirdly, i don make promises unless i can deliver what i said. people whom know me v well, knew that i don make promises. you want to know why? i tell you why. i've seen many broken promises that have been made to me and me onto others. i didnt like that feeling, so why force me to make a promise?

forthly, i asked for the time again and you gave attitude, did i mention that i didnt have the chance to explain anything or did you even ask why? you must be pondering "Will i say even if you did ask?" but then again have you tried?



perhaps you're right, my life is kinda messed up and i didnt know how to fix it.
and yes, im a changed person. perhaps the death of her, is the death of me.
i LIED. All along i've been lying to the whole world. i am sick and tired of the plastic smile. the important thing is that i look ok, nobody would have to question me about anything. but im not ok, i cant move on, i didnt know how to and perhaps i didnt want to. i've always been trying my best to help others out with their problems, but i've always been neglecting myself. i've lost something, something which grew up together with me - a family, a friend.




i tell you what, you want to know what's wrong? its me, its me, its me.

it's ok if you're feeling pissed off right now, it's your rights. i may whine but i dont blame you i can't control how you feel, afterall he's just the not-so-mysterious boy who cried wolf and swirls everyone else around his pinky. i don't really care, most of me have died already.

The triangle theorem.

There are 3 sides to every story :

A's story, B's story and what actually happened.
Well, no one's to blame =D




I can't wait for next saturday!

You don't force me into doing things.

because I'm not obliged to listen to anyone.
Even if I do, I do it on my own free will.

If you want something, ask nicely.

It's like finally.

And I love you so.